What is Adoration?

When we go before the Blessed Sacrament, let us open our heart; our good God will open His. We shall go to Him; He will come to us; the one to ask, the Other to receive. It will be like a breath from one to the other. – St. John Vianney

I read the following passage in a great little book I picked up recently called Manual for Eucharistic Adoration, written by the Poor Clares of Perpetual Adoration and edited by Paul Thigpen, whose Manual for Spiritual Warfare remains a favorite. I’ve been using both books during my weekly visits to the adoration chapel in town. The following passage stood out for me as a great explanation about what adoration is, particularly for those who might not understand what is meant when I write about it. It also explains why I think it is a difficult contrast to grasp for many in our me-first, self-centered lifestyle.

It’s from Chapter 5: Guidelines for Adoration (pages 32-33).


How Do I Adore?

manual-for-eucharistic-adorationIt is important to remember that feelings of love, fervor, and devotion are not essential for adoration. Adoration is not a sentiment.

Fr. John Hardon, in his Modern Catholic Dictionary, defines adoration as “the act of religion by which God is recognized as alone worthy of supreme honor because He is infinitely perfect, has supreme dominion over humans, and the right to human total dependence on the Creator. It is at once an act of mind and will, expressing itself in appropriate prayers, postures of praise, and acts of reverence and sacrifice.”[1]

Our adoration, therefore, begins when we walk in the door of the church or adoration chapel. When we genuflect before the Blessed Sacrament, kneel in the pew, and show Him our respect by giving Him our full attention, we adore Him. When we turn off our cell phone and maintain reverent silence in the chapel, we adore Him. When we make a simple act of faith in His Real Presence, we adore Him. When we place ourselves before Him as empty vessels to be filled with His love, we adore Him.

In our self-centered culture and classic American emphasis on work, we often feel we have to accomplish something during our times of prayer before the Blessed Sacrament. We rate our experience by how “good” our prayer was, how heartfelt our devotion was, or how focused we could remain. Yet prayer and contemplation are fundamentally God’s work, in which we are invited to participate.

We need only to give Him the opening, and He will do the rest. By coming to adoration, we are handing Him the key to our hearts, allowing the rays of His love and grace to bathe our souls in the light of His Presence, as the rays of the sun bathe our bodies in light. If we can take the time to pull away from the busyness and distractions of life and just sit at His feet, He will lead us.

[1]“Adoration,” in Fr. John A. Hardon, S.J., Modern Catholic Dictionary (Bardstown, KY: Eternal Life Publications, 2000), 13.

Busy Bees and Baseball

While reading my friend Paige’s book last night I searched my mind for any similar story I might have. I remembered the two children I encountered a few days ago and decided to take a crack at writing it down.

What follows is my homage to Paige and The Nice Thing About Strangers.


Bettis Family Sports Complex

Bettis Family Sports Complex

I am in Topeka, Kansas, with my family for a Mother’s Day baseball tournament. My son’s team of 12-year-olds played two games on a beautiful, sunny Saturday but the weatherman tells us today will be much different. Rain is expected all day and we are hoping that because the fields are covered in artificial turf, aside from the real outfield grass, we will be able to get the whole tournament in.

One of the things my family enjoys about these overnight out-of-town trips is the opportunity to attend Mass at different churches around the Midwest. Unfortunately due to our late Saturday game and early Sunday game we have to get up at 5:30am to shower, check out of our hotel and use the GPS to locate the Mater Dei parish in downtown Topeka for a 7:30am Mass. It is a beautiful 19th century church and the morning sunrise shines through the east-facing stained glass windows on my right. We bathe in the brilliant and warm colors reflected through the images of the Mary, St. Michael, and especially Jesus, the Good Shephard. Maybe the rain won’t come after all.

After arriving at the sports complex and while the boys and their coaches begin their pre-game routine on the soccer field, I find a place to sit on a landscaped wall with bushes at my back, strategically located within eyesight of the boys at 10 o’clock, and the game being played prior to ours on the field to the north of the field in front of me, located to my right at 3 o’clock. It turns out the weatherman was right after all. After Mass ended the sun disappeared behind a gray cloudbank and the temperature has begun to drop. Lake Shawnee, located beyond the soccer field, is empty, unlike the previous day when it was filled with jet ski and waterski enthusiasts.

“The bees are coming. We have to swim for it!” she shouts. The little girl with long brown hair and the big imagination is dressed in a full-length, floral-print dress and sandals. “Bees? Oh, no!” She is followed with much giggling by her smaller brother in a green t-shirt, shorts and sandals. I guess that she is 5, and he is around 3. Both of them run through the grass, whirling their arms like helicopters cutting through the imaginary water with their air-borne American crawl.

While I watch the children at play I sense their mom approaching from the ballfield. When you’ve been around youth baseball as long as I have you learn to recognize the purposeful gait of a mom seeking her wayward cubs. “You need to stay where I can see you,” she gently scolds them. Both continue to giggle and “swim” away from mom. As she stands watching with hands on hips I risk intruding on the scene and say “They’re swimming away from a swarm of bees. It sounded pretty serious.” Broken from her gaze she turns to look at me and I see for the first time her shirt with the name of her son’s team on the front. They are from Elkhorn, a community just west of Omaha. I am wearing my Nebraska Bison maroon hooded sweatshirt. We are both dressed in the uniform of the baseball parent and identified as a member of our respective herds. To help put her at ease I explain why I’m sitting where I am and keeping an eye on her kids and foul balls. We make small talk and learn about each other’s ballplaying sons while the two swimmers continue to frolic. As we do my son’s team begins to make their way towards the field, their pregame routine complete. She and I wish each other good luck and safe travels home, and she is finally able to entice her two younger charges to follow her up the path.

I eventually follow them to the field as it is where we are scheduled to play next. Their game would go into extra innings and big brother’s team would win to remain alive in the tournament. The drizzle turned into a soft yet steady rain, but the little sister and brother play on behind the dugout until corralled, soaking wet and smiling, under their mom’s umbrella.


Our team's little sister's Mother's Day chalk art left behind their big brother's dugout during the semifinals.

Chalk art left behind our team dugout during the semifinals by their little sisters. Fifteen minutes later the skies opened, the tournament was canceled, and this sloped sidewalk was left a multi-colored and smeared rainbow mess.

Friday Five – Volume 106: “The truth is…”

The commonality in this week’s items is the idea of Truth. In a few weeks on Good Friday we will once more read the words from Holy Scripture in which Pilate asks the man standing before him “Quid est veritas?” (John 18:38)

What is truth? As Jesus’ passion shows us, truth is rarely popular with a mob. But what else is truth?

  • Truth is radical.
  • Truth is clouded by ignorance.
  • Truth is mimicked in the false mirrors of politics and tyranny.
  • Truth is difficult to convey in our relativistic, multicultural, post modern age.
  • Truth is still present in our world today. It is beautiful. It is unexpected. It will take our breath away and drop us to our knees in awe.

Strange times are these, in which we live, forsooth ;
When young and old are taught in Falsehood’s school:–
And the man who dares to tell the truth,
Is called at once a lunatic and fool.

— George Francis Train, from Pen Sketches of Nebraskans by A.C. Edmunds, published in 1871 in Lincoln, Nebraska (source). This quote (or its variation) is often misattributed to Plato and often appears in memes plastered all over Facebook and Twitter.

Friday Five-Mere Observations

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Open up your Bible and read one of the four Gospels from start to finish. Try to do it with fresh eyes, and you will be struck by something: Jesus was a radical—and his life and teachings are a radical invitation to something beyond what most of us have settled for in our everyday lives.

What does radical mean? It means to get to the “root” of things.

Jesus was interested in getting deep down to the root of things. He was interested in what was essential—not the fluffy periphery, but the core, the center, the heart of things.

Jesus wasn’t trapped by the notion of political correctness. He wasn’t burdened with the need to be liked by people. He wasn’t moved by the desire for expediency or convenience. Instead, he simply allowed truth to reign supreme.

Truth is radical.

Rediscover Jesus by Matthew Kelly. Chapter 8.

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Hidden beneath various slogans (“Love wins!”) and postures (“tolerance”) this is the fundamental factual reality that the modern ethos abhors, because it has substituted feelings for facts and overwhelmed reason with the will.

The duty to instruct the ignorant is a work of mercy because there is something important that can be known and should be known to attain spiritual maturity. Cicero said, “To be ignorant of history is always to remain a child.” That kind of ignorance is not the childlike innocence that leads to the Kingdom of heaven. It is the childishness of adults who do not know that there is much they do not know.

Father George Rutler, Magnificat Year of Mercy Companion, February 17

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Let us call this Lenin’s Wax Dummy Effect. During the Cold War, critics in the West remarked that the Soviet Union and its doctrine of Marxism-Leninism resembled nothing so much as a new religion, complete with scripture (the writings of Marx and Engels), charismatic prophets (Lenin and Stalin) with the aura of demigods, a Church Militant (the Party), a mother church (the Kremlin), and a clerical caste (the Politburo and Soviet apologists in the West). The religion also had, tellingly, a funerary temple to the mummified corpse of the Founder lying in eternal state just outside the Kremlin’s walls, where tourists an Soviet citizens alike would wait in the cold of a Russian winter to shuffle past the bier and gaze upon the embalmed body of the Leader, Teacher, Beacon, Helsman, the Immortal Guide, V.I. Lenin (whose relics were gathers at the Lenin Institute and Lenin Museum immediately upon his death).

The Devil’s Pleasure Palace: The Cult of Critical Theory and the Subversion of the West, by Michael Walsh


Tens of millions of unborn babies have been slaughtered; illegitimacy rates have soared; divorce has skyrocketed; pornography is rampant; drug use has exploded; sexually transmitted diseases such as AIDS have killed millions; birth control is a way of life; sex outside of wedlock has become the norm; countless children have been permanently damaged — their innocence lost forever — because of the proliferation of broken homes; and sodomy and homosexuality are celebrated openly. America has become the new Babylon. –  Jeffrey T. Kuhner, Washington Times, January 20, 2011. (source)

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The one that is worrying is that, in our relativistic, multicultural, post modern age, any form of argumentation is simply impossible. You can only argue about something if you and your opponent have at least some shared foundational values and philosophical principles. If your opponent does not believe there is such a thing as truth or if he denies that there is any authority on earth that can ascertain and interpret the truth, then there is very little that can be discussed.

Look around. Why is there so much chaos, turmoil, confusion, fear and recrimination?  Because people not only do not believe the same thing, they don’t believe it is possible to have a shared belief system or foundational philosophy. They don’t believe it is possible because they don’t believe such things exist. Consequently, on what basis does anyone argue about anything?

Increasingly, the only basis on which people argue is their feelings and instincts. Driven by animal instincts and dark forces they cannot understand, they respond with feelings of rage, anger, confusion and fear. When confronted with a belief system or person that contradicts them or suggests they control these instincts, the response is rage expressed as sarcasm, personal attack, profanity or some other form of irrational emotionalism.

Father Dwight Longenecker: Why I Won’t Argue Anymore

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“We went into the cathedral for a few moments, and as we stood there in respectful silence, a woman came in with her shopping basket and knelt down in one of the pews to say a short prayer. That was something completely new to me. In the synagogue, as in the Protestant churches I had visited, people only went in at the time of the service. But here was someone coming into the empty church in the middle of a day’s work as if to talk with a friend. I have never been able to forget that.” – Edith Stein, on a visit to Frankfurt in 1919 (source).

On August 9, 1942, Edith Stein, now known as Sister Teresa Benedicta of the Cross, and her sister Rosa, died in Auschwitz. A German Jewish philosopher and former athiest, she was beatified as a saint on May 1, 1987, in Cologne, Germany.


St. Thomas Aquinas in Lincoln, Nebraska

St. Thomas Aquinas Catholic Church in Lincoln, Nebraska

There are so many great stories. Here is a favorite. As you leave the church, the following words are painted on the arch above the door: “The more we love God, the better our love is.” That quotation is from St. Thomas Aquinas. Makes sense, right? Well at one of our recent weddings, when the bride and groom walked out of the church, the bride stopped the groom at the arch and told him, “Take off your ring.” Of course, he was puzzled and confused. And so she said to him again, “Take off your ring and look at the inside.” Inscribed on the inside of the ring were the words, “The more we love God, the better our love is.” That story still gives me goose bumps.

And then of course there is Night Fever. Night Fever is an event that started in Cologne, Germany where young people go out into the streets and invite people who are out and about to come into the church to light a candle and say a prayer for peace. The Blessed Sacrament is on the altar with the lights low and priests and prayer team members are available for confessions or just to talk. We have had two of these nights in our new church. And again, it’s amazing to see what happens. I remember at our first Night Fever watching three young teenage boys walk up the center aisle with their skateboards in tow. They stood in front of the altar in amazement for a short time before falling to their knees to light a candle and offer a prayer. It was beautiful, and I’m pretty sure when they left home that evening with their skateboards, they had no idea that encounter was going to take place.

Father Robert Matya, HuskerCatholic newsletter, Winter 2016, p.11

St. Thomas Aquinas Catholic Church in Lincoln, Nebraska.

St. Thomas Aquinas Catholic Church in Lincoln, Nebraska.

Photos of St. Thomas Aquinas Catholic Church and Newman Center at the University of Nebraska-Lincoln taken by the author.

Fighting back

There has long been a deep reservoir of hate in this country just waiting to be tapped. Now Hillary Clinton on the left and Donald Trump from wherever he comes have both tapped it – it is open and gushing, it is vile, and it is threatening to bring this country down.

The only thing that will stop it is prayer – the ONLY thing. – online commenter Terry at Crisis Magazine online


The life of man upon earth is a warfare… – Job 7:1


Last night I entered the fray.

I joined the battle.

We established a beachhead.

I haven’t been writing much for more than a few weeks now. My efforts to continue with The Screwtape Letters project is, for now, on hold. I got tired of staring at an empty screen and will try to continue another day.

The bitter and honest truth is that I’ve been…how to say this…out of sorts.

Out of whack. Lost my equilibrium.

I’ve been under attack.

I’ve said before that I believe the great battle of our times is before us. I’ve also said that it will be a spiritual war.

After the events of the last month I stand behind those assertions.

It’s been a rough year. A year filled with self-doubt and second-guessing. A year of “what ifs”. Through it all I’ve struggled to keep my balance and maintain both my optimism and stay upright. At times I’ve come perilously close to giving in to despair. One beam of light guided me through this fog.

Prayer, specifically the Liturgy of the Hours, also known as the Divine Office.

We are living in strange times. Or hadn’t you noticed? Many have not. Distracted by the soft comforting glow of their various screens they are oblivious to history’s verdicts. How else does one explain our youth’s embracing of the culture of death and socialism? How else to explain the unhinged, vehement attacks levied at anyone who points out the obvious lack of conservative bona fides in the candidate widely embraced on the right as “the true conservative candidate”?

Thought and reason have no traction today because emotions and slogans have superseded them.

What the hell is going on?

And that’s the answer. Hell is going on.


Of late I’ve read many things online to ramp up my sense of urgency regarding this war. If the results from this survey by the Barna Group are in fact true, then I’m already to be considered an extremist in the eyes of many. The war is already being waged against me. I just as well fight back and make damn sure I live up to the evidence and label that may someday be used against me.

Society is undergoing a change of mind about the way religion and people of faith intersect with public life. That is, there are intensifying perceptions that faith is at the root of a vast number of societal ills.

Though it remains the nation’s most dominant religion, Christianity faces significant headwind in the court of public opinion. The decades-old trend that Christianity is irrelevant is increasingly giving way to the notion that Christianity is bad for society.

A new major study conducted by Barna Group, and explored in the new book Good Faith, co-authored by Barna president David Kinnaman, examines society’s current perceptions of faith and Christianity. In sum, faith and religion and Christianity are viewed by millions of adults to be extremist.

A growing portion of society considers me an extremist by virtue of my actually professing and living by my beliefs as a Christian. As a conservative I’ve watched myself or anyone else who questions the candidacy of Donald Trump be labeled a “rich, establishment, power mad” fool who is not a “true conservative” and will get “what’s coming to you!”. Ummm…what? I’ve watched those members of the media who call themselves conservatives outed for the carnival barkers that they are, nothing more than shills looking to make a book for the candidate du jour.

I’ve seen spleens vented at Pope Francis and any Catholic who dares call him or herself Catholic while pleading for some decent human decency be shown the less fortunate or the poor.

Obama voters the past two elections just pissed me off. I laughed them off as unserious kids fawning over an unqualified leftist. Supporters of Trump who spew their hatred and bile towards anyone who dare point out the flaws in their reason or simply ask for clarification on their stance scare the hell out of me because this lot is filled with rage and they are looking for someone to pour it upon. And I get it. I’m as upset with the Republican party leadership as anyone on how they’ve said one thing to get elected and then done the opposite once in office, while sending out letters for more money. I stopped supporting the GOP in 2006 when despite having control of all three branches of government they did not one blessed thing about abortion in this country. But as soon as Nancy Pelosi and Harry Reid took over in 2006 the fundraising letters once more were filling the mailboxes of pro-lifers everywhere.

So I get the anger and disillusionment. But Trump? And to vent that anger out on not just your fellow citizens of either party, but against those who are in tune with the Constitution and our nation’s history?

It’s nothing new. History has shown us examples of a citizenry embracing anger during the Reign of Terror in France, in Puritan England, and  in pre-World War II Germany.

The lessons from this history is that it never ends well for the likes of people like me.


Already being bloodied from the blows received, I read the following from scripture one  evening while in prayer:

My brothers, count it pure joy when you are involved in every sort of trial. Realize that when your faith is tested this makes for endurance. Let endurance come to its perfection so that you may be fully mature and lacking in nothing. – James 1:2-4 (Evening Prayer for January 29)

The very next morning I read this during Morning Prayer:

In everything you do, act without grumbling or arguing; prove yourselves innocent and straightforward, children of God beyond reproach in the midst of a twisted and depraved generation—among whom you shine like the stars in the sky. – Philippians 2:14-15 (Morning Prayer for January 30)

I decided I needed to make a call.


During mornings or evenings above 30 degrees you will find me outside with these.

During mornings or evenings above 30 degrees you will find me outside with these.

It has been a long-time goal of mine to initiate the praying of Vespers, or Evening Prayer, at my parish. A few weeks ago I finally got around to setting up a meeting with my parish priest to discuss it. I say finally because I could no longer ignore what I see going on. I needed to stop fighting alone, and begin to form a squad to wage the only form of warfare that matters and the one for which I’m best equipped. My son is a United States Marine. He’s trained for the more conventional battles of this world. He has been raised to fight the other, too, but for now his task is elsewhere.

Mine, however, is not. Mine is against the “powers and principalities” of this world.

This is your fight as well.

I have prayed the Liturgy of the Hours for just about fifteen years, ever since I first worked up the nerve to ask our former assistant pastor Father Hottovy to show me the book he always carried with him. It was slow going and a struggle at many times, but I persevered until now my day feels unbalanced if I fail to pray at least Morning or Evening Prayers. Being a historian I researched its origins and revisions over the years, even purchasing an expensive set of pre-Vatican II era books containing the Divine Office in both Latin and English.

But mostly I have done so in order to sanctify time for God. Except for a handful of occasions I have prayed this communal prayer alone.

I wanted to change that. Father Johnson agreed. And we selected Wednesday evenings at 6pm immediately following 5:30 Mass. We agreed that instead of announcing it in the bulletin for now or at weekend Masses he would simply announce it at the end of last night’s Mass and invite people to stick around to join me.


About the same time that I first contacted Father for a Saturday morning meeting over coffee the attacks upon me intensified. As last night drew near they threatened to suffocate me. I struggled to smile or find happiness. Optimism about almost anything seemed to disappear. I found myself hit with dreams and visions in broad daylight…horrible and awful images of my family, especially my children, and at times my friends. I saw horrific scenes, too terrible to recount, that involved my children bloodied, in danger, or worse. I couldn’t sleep and had little energy. My despair would turn to frustration and in a flash my anger would flare with words against those who mean the most to me. Two days ago I was sitting at a red light when one flashed before my eyes and caused me to cry uncontrollably as the light turned green through my tear-streaked eyes. The devil knows our weakness. It has ever been so.

I honestly thought I was falling apart. Believe it or not thoughts of my own death and of not being a burden to my loved ones crept into my mind.

But then little pinpoints of grace would shine forth. Nothing huge, but small indications that I did have worth, that I mattered, and that I made a difference began to emerge. Two examples:

Two weeks ago my Marine and I were texting about his younger brother’s upcoming baseball season. Jonah is twelve and at this point in his young life already a much better baseball player than his older brother. Considering that Nolan was able to contribute and then start on two spring high school state champion baseball teams and compete for summer state titles as well, that’s saying a lot about his younger brother. A back injury almost cost Nolan his high school baseball career and deeply affected his attitude, causing lethargy and depression. Prior to his sophomore year he was going to quit and we argued back and forth about it for weeks before the treatment and work he’d been doing to heal his injury caused him to relent and play. Ever since 2012 I’ve beat myself up and wondered how much resentment my coaxing him to play had caused. I wondered if he’d ever appreciate all that he and his buddies had accomplished. Lately I’ve wondered if I would have the strength to do so again with Jonah should he travel a similar path.

It turns out I won’t have to get after Jonah. His big brother will. This is a part of our text exchange:

Nolan: Make him play at least through high school. He’ll be glad one day.

Me (after taking a big gulp): Are you thankful I pushed you to play?

Nolan: More than anything. I’ve been talking to some of the guys out here. We all want more than anything to be able to go back and play under the lights one more time. Whether it’s football, baseball, basketball, soccer, whatever…everyone wishes they could go back just one more time.

I hoped I would hear those words before I was 60, never dreaming I’d hear them at 48.

The last occurrence was the unexpected gift of a book from a friend. I had loaned her five books from the World War II era on the fate of Christians, including St. Maximilian Kolbe and Edith Stein to use as research for a college paper she was writing. Becky is my age but has gone back to school in order to finish up her teaching degree. Several weeks later she showed up unannounced and unexpected in order to present me with a copy of a book published late last year called Church of Spies. For fifteen minutes we stood outside as she talked about her research and thanked me several times for the use of books from my library. She couldn’t see it in the twilight, but I was so quiet because I was trying to keep from crying after being overwhelmed by her simple generosity. I’d been beaten down and was nearly exhausted, but her gesture was like a cool drink of fresh water.

And then yesterday I began to understand what was happening. While praying during my lunch hour at the Pink Sisters chapel and sitting before the Blessed Sacrament, I began to understand that I was under attack. Satan did not want me to introduce Evening Prayer at St. John’s nor did he want those I met with to understand they could use this great treasure of the Church themselves. The tradition of sanctifying time to God through the praying of the psalms goes back thousands of years before Christ when the Jews would pray them throughout the day. Jesus himself prayed these same psalms. The Catholic Church has done the same ever since. But not just Catholics. Anglicans, Lutherans and other Protestant denominations all have their own traditions that grew from the trunk of this tree.

While sitting slump-backed in that pew yesterday I was encouraged and renewed. Despite my self-doubt and fears I would press on. I was too close to quit now after wanting to begin for so long.


In the grand scheme of things it was hardly noticeable. After Mass last night I stood in front of the sanctuary with the booklets I’d printed for use. I made only ten, hoping for at least one or two people to join me. After a few minutes of thinking no one would I found myself suddenly surrounded by around 15 people. After a brief introduction on my part we began. Fifteen minutes later it was done. We finished while the church was filling for a 7pm First Confession service held for our second graders and their parents. I doubt very many were aware of us or what was going on.

But something did happen. A toe-hold was made. A command post was established.

Last night we began fighting back. In community. Communion.

I slept like a baby last night for the first time in months.

We will continue every Wednesday night going forward. We may grow in number or we may not. But I believe we will see an increase in numbers over time.

I believe there are many who want to fight back. They see the shroud of darkness descending and are hungry to learn about whatever weapons available to them.

Based on the comments and positive feedback received last night I stand by that belief. And I will be better prepared in the future for the spiritual attacks that I know will come. There’s always a counter-attack.

I’m hopeful that last night we struck a blow and that as we continue others will have their eyes opened to the beauty and power contained within the Divine Office. All are welcome to join us for 15-20 minutes of prayer. Perhaps in time we’ll extend it for 15-30 minutes of discussion. In the meantime I have made plans to include a sheet each week that teaches on some aspect of the Liturgy of the Hours and history of the Divine Office.

But I’m taking it slow. Better a start than none at all. For while we live in seemingly more desperate times and there is a sense of urgency, I feel a calm that tells me to not rush according to my own schedule.

It’s His time, after all. Sanctified.


His story.


For though we live in the world we are not carrying on a worldly war, for the weapons of our warfare are not worldly but have divine power to destroy strongholds. – 2 Corinthians 10:3-4

Friday Five – Volume 105

Friday Five-Mere Observations

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Last Saturday and for the second year in a row I attended the Daddy/Daughter dance at our Catholic school. It is an annual opportunity for myself and the other dads to relive our memories of many a junior high or high school dance. In other words, we stand against the walls, sipping punch and talking sports while the girls dance. Only these are OUR girls. And dance they do. On the eve of her ninth birthday my own daughter relished the chance to show off the moves she’s been practicing in her bedroom while listening to the local pop station and watching music videos on her tablet (yes, approved by yours truly).

She relished the opportunity. I, having witnessed her so-called moves, resolved on the spot to chaperone all remaining dances between now and her graduation in 2025.

In the end, she did come to ask me to dance to the last song, the ever-popular Butterfly Kisses. We danced together, arm in arm, except for the 3-4 times she insisted “Twirl me, daddy”…and so I did.

I want to also note the moment when, dancing with his two daughters, my friend Jeremy heard the line “She’ll change her name today” and hollered “No she won’t!”

Those possible events await us down the line. For now it was just us and our little girls. I soaked as much of those moments as I could into my memory sponge in order to squeeze a few drops out as an oasis when we travel through the inevitable arid teenage desert.

Nothing against Bob Carlisle or his song Butterfly Kisses, but I much prefer Cinderella by Steven Curtis Chapman.

PS: As her favorite pop music station and the DJ at the dance play a lot of Top 40 stuff and Sophie loved dancing to Bruno Mars, Katy Perry, Taylor Swift and many more artists I do not know, I decided it was time to allow her to graduate from her Frozen and ABBA CDs, gulped hard, and bought her a copy of Taylor Swift’s 1989. I’ll probably regret it as it took me six months to flush Shake It Off out of my brain and Welcome to New York has been bouncing around between my ears ever since that dance…but it was worth it to see her smile and shriek as she ran off to her room to play it.

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Whether you practice the sacrament of Confession as Catholics do or prefer to do so in a more personal manner, you may be interested in reading Ashley Osmera’s story The Confessional: A Treasure Unlocked. Of the seven sacraments Confession was the biggest stumbling block for me as I transitioned from Protestantism to Catholicism. In time it became perhaps my favorite other than receiving Christ in the Eucharist.

“Ummm,” came the mumbled response, as Steven looked at the locks. “I don’t know which one goes where…wait, I suppose I have the instructions in my shoe or something, right?” Steven shot back, rolling his eyes. Instead of being offended, the man simply shrugged. In disbelief, Steven looked down to see a small scroll of paper at his feet. He unrolled it and read, “One key to expose that which is hidden, and one to bow and then rise again. One key to boldly state one’s fault, and one to see the wounds of sin.” Glancing back at the keys in his hand, Steven saw that each of them had an inscription: Humility, Courage, Sincerity, and Simplicity.

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While I am not sharing any photos from the Daddy/Daughter dance I do want to give you a glimpse of the face I see every morning before I go to work. Our beagle has taken to hopping onto my lap and joining me for Morning Prayer each day. Buster will usually sit at attention during the Invitatory and Psalm 95, and then curl up to listen to the rest.

A beagle and his breviary

A beagle and his breviary

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Why do we love words? Why do we even use words? What’s language and human speech all about, anyway? In his response to these questions B.A. Lewis reveals three reasons. The third is my favorite. It’s a very short article so I won’t paste anything here but instead encourage you to read it.

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My quote o’ the week is actually several quotes. The first comes from a favorite saint, not just because we recently celebrated St. Valentine’s Day, but because of the depth contained within these forty-five words. St. John of the Cross in his brevity said more than many modern self-proclaimed wordsmiths who prattle endlessly on but with all the depth of a sidewalk rain puddle. At times, yours truly is counted among them. It is followed by two more that deserve more than a cursory mention. There is much meat on them bones. Do not pass them over lightly. The final quote fits with the previous in the overall theme of a Christian and his or her “human condition” while we, the Church Militant, live on this earthly plane.

And I saw a river over which every soul must pass to reach the Kingdom of Heaven, and the name of that river was suffering … and then I saw a boat which carried souls across the river, and the name of that boat was Love. – Saint John of the Cross

“He submits to pain, because it is inevitable, to bereavement, because it is irreparable, and to death, because it is his destiny.” – John Henry Cardinal Newman, on ‘the gentleman’

“A religious man is a person who holds God and man in one thought at one time, at all times, who suffers harm done to others, whose greatest passion is compassion, whose greatest strength is love and defiance of despair.” – Abraham Joshua Heschell

God assumed from the beginning that the wise of the world would view Christians as fools…and He has not been disappointed. Devout Christians are destined to be regarded as fools in modern society. We are fools for Christ’s sake. We must pray for courage to endure the scorn of the sophisticated world. If I have brought any message today, it is this: Have the courage to have your wisdom regarded as stupidity. Be fools for Christ. And have the courage to suffer the contempt of the sophisticated world. – Antonin Scalia

Lent 2016: No trace of him remains

A few housecleaning items on this Ash Wednesday.

I promise I’ll get back to my The Screwtape Letters series. I got a little sidetracked by life during the last two weeks.


I did post something at my other blog earlier today about something I read by Cardinal Newman. Here’s that link.


Yesterday Amanda at Inside the Life of Moi wrote a terrific piece about her decision to delete her Instagram account. Near the end she writes:

And so I find the icons on my iPhone, jittering in fear, wondering who is going to get cut from the team. Quiver away, dear Instagram! Today, it’s your turn to get the boot.

I loved that part about the iPhone icons “jittering in fear.” If you’ve ever deleted apps from an iPhone or iTouch you know what she means.


In fact three of them were jittering on my phone last night: Twitter, Messenger and Facebook.

A week ago Twitter leaked that it was thinking of altering its feed and moving towards an algorithm-based feed that displays what it thinks you would be interested in. Aside from the fact that this would allow Twitter to control the news that you see on your feed (much like Facebook has done the past few years) I have grown tired of all the sarcastic overly-cynical angst-filled tweets. After attempting to log out of Twitter on my phone yesterday for Lent and finding that every time I touched the icon I was logged back in I decided to just delete the app. Since 99.99% of the time I access Twitter through my phone I’ve effectively left the service. I’ll decide after Lent whether to delete the account from my PC. So long Twitter.

I discovered that I cannot log out of Facebook Messenger from my phone. Farewell Messenger.

While I can log out of Facebook from my phone I was on a roll. And since I was leaving Facebook for Lent anyhow I decided to make it a triple-delete special. Auf wiedersehen-Goodbye Facebook.

Instead I’ll be here at WordPress when I can. Spending more time with Screwtape.

And with all of you of course.


In addition I chose as my reading this Lent an old book I found in some boxes. Meditation on the Passion was first published in 1946 and has been reprinted many times since then. The version I have was published in 1961. I found that it is still available in paperback form, but also in Kindle format for $2.99. All twenty-two reviews give it five stars, and from what I’ve read to this point I can’t find a reason to argue with them. While Amazon lists Fr. Walsh as the author he was in fact the editor and wrote the book’s introduction. According to the bookcover’s backflap on my edition the author was an unnamed member of the Institute of the Blessed Virgin Mary, who was Mistress of the Novices for about thirty years.


Look at that old book cover. How could you not want to read it?



I will also be participating in the 54 Day Basic Training in Holiness with Fr. Richard Heilman. The first day’s meditation and info is posted here.


It looks like I’m doing perhaps too much for Lent I suppose, but it’s very doable without the endless finger-scrolling and buried-face-in-phone-screen that was a result of social media. Even my two kids gave up their tablets and games on their PS4. And considering how fierce they’ve become at Star Wars Battle Front that was no small sacrifice for them. Ha!

There is a myriad of small groups offered at my parish during Lent to meet and discuss Matthew Kelly’s book Rediscover Jesus (get your free copy here) but alas…I could not find a time that worked for me. Hence the other options.


I also keep myself so busy to take my mind off of my oldest son, a US Marine. He is supposed to have a two-week leave in March prior to deploying to a not-so-very-safe part of the world for the rest of this year. Two weeks ago he told me it was cut back to a five day leave. Last week he said there’s a chance of his not coming home at all before shipping out. Nothing sobers me up faster than the knowledge that a photo I took mere minutes prior to saying goodbye to him at the airport may be the last one taken of he and his two siblings together.

siblings 1.2.2016

I’m sorry. That was a bit much. But it’s also my reality.


And finally, I stopped by the Pink Sisters today to pray the Divine Office. I thought the following selections from Psalm 103 and Isaiah 58 were particularly appropriate on this, the first day of Lent.

From Psalm 103:

For he knows how we are made,
he remembers we are nothing but dust.

Man – his life is like grass,
he blossoms and withers like flowers of the field.

The wind blows and carries him away:
no trace of him remains.

From Isaiah 58:

If you do away with the yoke,
the clenched fist, the wicked word,
if you give your bread to the hungry,
and relief to the oppressed,

your light will rise in the darkness,
and your shadows become like noon.
The Lord will always guide you,
giving you relief in desert places.

He will give strength to your bones
and you shall be like a watered garden,
like a spring of water
whose waters never run dry.

You will rebuild the ancient ruins,
build up on the old foundations.
You will be called ‘Breach-mender’,
‘Restorer of ruined houses.’


When taken together I gleaned the following: my time on this earth is preciously brief when you take eternity into account. Psalm 103 has always been a sobering reminder of that fact. And in one of my favorite pieces of Scripture Isaiah reminds me of the same. So much of social media is in fact a yoke around our necks, filled with wicked/angry words typed through clenched fists (and teeth), and even if I do not fall prey to doing the same it is quite wearisome to read. That is time that would be better spent helping those around us. Silencing ourselves in order to listen to that still, small voice of God as it attempts to guide us and strengthen us. To be an oasis in this cultural desert for others and rebuild upon the old, tried and tested foundations.

Join me?

Screwtape Letter #2: Conversion and Old Habits

In his second letter Screwtape notes that Wormwood’s patient has become a professing Christian, but tells his nephew not to give up hope.  Many have been turned away, he notes, by focusing on the flaws and peculiarities of Christians rather than on Christ himself.  As long as the patient somehow thinks of himself as a good person, he can easily be persuaded that those he sees in church are hypocrites because of their imperfections. Wormwood’s task: Make him disillusioned with the church by highlighting people he self-righteously thinks are strange or hypocritical.

In Chapter Two, Screwtape lays out a strategy for Wormwood to follow:

One of our great allies at present is the Church itself. Do not misunderstand me. I do not mean the Church as we see her spread out through all time and space and rooted in eternity, terrible as an army with banners. That, I confess, is a spectacle which makes our boldest tempters uneasy. But fortunately it is quite invisible to these humans. All your patient sees is the half-finished, sham Gothic erection on the new building estate. When he goes inside, he sees the local grocer with rather an oily expression on his face bustling up to offer him one shiny little book containing a liturgy which neither of them understands, and one shabby little book containing corrupt texts of a number of religious lyrics, mostly bad, and in very small print. When he gets to his pew and looks round him he sees just that selection of his neighbors whom he has hitherto avoided. You want to lean pretty heavily on those neighbors. Make his mind flit to and fro between an expression like “the body of Christ” and the actual faces in the next pew. You may know one of them to be a great warrior on the Enemy’s side. No matter. Your patient, thanks to Our Father Below, is a fool. Provided that any of those neighbors sing out of tune, or have boots that squeak, or double chins, or odd clothes, the patient will quite easily believe that their religion must therefore be somehow ridiculous.

How many times have you sat in church, looked around, and thought the same thing? Faith, if it’s honestly sought, demands to see the truth, even when the truth around you is not pretty. And no, the people attending church with you are not always pretty. Fortunately (for us all) it’s the condition of your soul and not your grooming that’s the key to salvation.

When you experience conversion, your call is to seek truth, beauty and goodness. That would be the Divine approach. The diabolical approach is rooted in old, familiar habits: to seek and notice the negative, the ugly, and the bad. We have to take off the old man, and put on the new in order to be changed. For example:

  • 2 Corinthians 5:17: Therefore, if any one is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has passed away, behold, the new has come.
  • Ephesians 4:24: … and put on the new nature, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.
  • Colossians 3:12-14: Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassion, kindness, lowliness, meekness, and patience, forbearing one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony.
  • 2 Corinthians 3:17-18: Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being changed into his likeness from one degree of glory to another; for this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.

Or, as the Navarre Bible – New Testament Expanded Edition puts it on page 721:

First, you have chosen to take off the “old” man (Adam) and to put on the new (Christ). That new man is truth itself, and He will help you in the breaking of the old habits you bring with you into your new life with Him. The Christian no longer has the “old nature”; he is no longer the “old” person who lived in the darkness of evil, but rather a “new” one, who should reflect God in his behavior: he lives in the light of the Lord, as a wise man, full of the Spirit, in the midst of the world. His family and social life, too, should reflect the fact that he is a new person. In order not to succumb to the power of evil that is present in the world, he must always be vigilant, to keep up the fight, using the weapons of the Spirit.

Wormwood’s patient has joined himself to the Body of Christ. By joining yourself to His Church you have also joined His Body. Christ is the head of the Body. You comprise the Body of Christ. (1 Corinthians 12:26)

By joining yourself to this “body” you are yet paradoxically free. How is this so?

Jesus Christ brought about your redemption. To “redeem” means to “set free”. You gained your freedom by joining his body. “God made us in Christ. So it is through Christ once again that he has formed us anew. We are his members; he our Head.” – Ambrosiaster, Epistle to the Ephesians 2.5.

So you have your freedom. You’re feeling great about things and excited for what this new life holds in the future. But after a short time you’ll begin to look around at the other members of the body who are seated in the pews around you. Old habits of comparing yourself to others die hard. You may recognize some of those Christians around you and begin to think to yourself: “Wait a minute! I know this guy’s a cheat. And her! She’s the biggest gossiping hypocrite in town. What am I doing here with these people?”

There is a question in this chapter that Screwtape strongly warned Wormwood to keep his patient from asking. Therefore I suggest that you consider asking it of yourself: “If I, being what I am, can consider that I am in some sense a Christian, why should the different vices of those people in the next pew prove that their religion is mere hypocrisy and convention?”

In other words, resist the temptation to compare yourself to others. Remember, you have “put off the old nature with its practices and have put on the new nature, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator.” (Colossians 3:8-9)

"Church Pew with Worshippers" by Vincent van Gogh (1882)

“Church Pew with Worshippers” by Vincent van Gogh (1882)

So how do you avoid thinking or speaking ill of your peers in the pews? One way is keeping yourself immersed in the truth and humility. Remember, Christ is truth, and by keeping yourself in Him you can more easily ensure that you are not falling into the trap of slandering your neighbors.

Fabian Brusketwitz, the Bishop Emeritus of the Diocese of Lincoln told the following story on page 245 of his book A Shepherd Speaks:

Almost everyone remembers the saintly advice given to a gossiping woman who was struggling with her vice. She was told to cut open a pillow and let the feather fly out her window. Then the following week she was told to go out and gather them all up. Protesting that such a thing was impossible, she was then reminded that her gossip, wrecking the reputation of her neighbors, was like those feathers, spreading continuously and impossible to call back. Backbiting, slander, detraction, and calumny, as well as rash judgment, can be involved in gossip. In those kinds of sins, the readers and listeners (“enablers”) can share in the guilt of the gossiping persons themselves.

You must remain a sense of humility. Remember, “the heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately corrupt; who can understand it?” (Jeremiah 17:9)

Or as Lewis put it in Mere Christianity:

If anyone would like to acquire humility, I can, I think, tell him the first step. The first step is to realise that one is proud. And a biggish step, too. At least, nothing whatever can be done before it. If you think you are not conceited, it means you are very conceited indeed. – Mere Christianity, Book III, Ch. 8

Faith, if it’s honestly sought, demands to see truth, even when the truth around you is not as pretty. Christ is still present among you in the Liturgy while in church. Keep in mind that the liturgy is a public work meaning it calls us to proclaim a living faith in participation with God. Just because those around you are not participating does not mean that you shouldn’t either.

Above all, remember well these words: To imitate the Father, love like the Son.